The pencil and the eraser..

Pencil: You know i'm really sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything

Pencil: I'm sorry 'cause you get hurt because of me. Whenever i make a mistake you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller every time

Eraser: That's true but i don't really mind. You see, i was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one of these days i know i'll be gone and you have to replace me with a new one, i'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad..=)

='( I was touched by this..

10th Grade:-
       As I sat there in English class,
       I stared at the girl next to me.
       She was my so called 'best friend'.
       I stared at her long, silky hair,
       and wished she was mine.
       But she didn't notice me like that,
       and I knew it.
       After class,
       she walked up to me and asked me for
       the notes she had missed the day before.
       I handed them to her.She said 'thanks'
       and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
       I want to tell her, I want her to know
       that I don't want to be just friends,
       I love her but I'm just too shy,
       and I don't know why.
11th grade:-
        The phone rang. On the other end,
        it was her. She was in tears,
        mumbling on and on about how
        her love had broke her heart.
        She asked me to come over
        because she didn't want to be alone, So I did.
        As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her
        soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
        After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
        and three bags of chips,
        she decided to go home.
        She looked at me, said 'thanks'
        and gave me a kiss
        on the cheek..I want to tell her,
        I want her to know that
        I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Senior year:-
        One fine day she walked to my locker.
        "My date is sick" she said,
        "hes not gonna go" well,
        I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
        we made a promise that
        if neither of us had dates,
        we would go together just as 'best friends'.
        So we did.
        That night, after everything was over,
        I was standing at her front door step.
        I stared at her as She smiled at me
        and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
        Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!"
        and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
        I want to tell her,
        I want her to know
        that I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Graduation:-
        A day passed, then a week, then a month.
        Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
        I watched as her perfect body
        floated like an angel
        up on stage to get her diploma.
        I wanted her to be mine-but
        she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
        Before everyone went home,
        she came to me in her smock and hat,
        and cried as I hugged her.
        Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
        and said- 'you're my best friend,
        thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
        I want to tell her,
        I want her to know
        that I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Marriage:-
        Now I sit in the pews of the church.
        That girl is getting married now.
        and drive off to her new life,
        married to another man.
        I wanted her to be mine,
        but she didn't see me like that,
        and I knew it.
        But before she drove away,
        she came to me and said 'you came !'.
        She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
        I want to tell her,
        I want her to know
        that I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Death:-
        Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
        of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
        At the service, they read a diary entry
        she had wrote in her high school years.
        This is what it read:
        'I stare at him wishing he was mine,
        but he doesn't notice me like that,
        and I know it.
        I want to tell him,
        I want him to know that
        I don't want to be just friends,
        I love him but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
        I wish he would tell me he loved me !
        .........'I wish I did too...'
        I thought to my self, and I cried.

=)

Today aku spent time bjln2 lagi sama my bf.. Andang fevretku ni jln2 time offdayku. "Knpkn ko ani suka jln2 Ema??Nda pandai teranah di rumah jua ko ni!!" Peduli apa ku. Sudah time kraja stress, time offday buang stress la. Lagipun aku suka spend time sama bfku... Bh ani ja x, ngaleh ku dah.. Masa utk tidoooo~~ ZzzzzZZ~~ I'm very happy today.. =D

Sak kali ey~

Awu, sasakku! Tadi ada lagi bini2 atu komen arah status bfku. Cam apa! Sasakku meliat, mcm ada hati sulnya rah bfku. Hmm~ Down lagi rasaku.. Nada mood eh.. Shit! 

Bored to da max!

As stated on my 'Title', yes I am bored right now. Perrggghh~~ I feel cold cz it's raining outside. I need my boy to hug me.. ^^, Sak kali eh..haha.. Today is my offday and I spent it wisely by spending a quality time with my boyfie. Nyeh.. Hahaha.. This is what I usually do if I'm on my holiday. Jln2~

This morning, me and him went to Kemuda for a reason (you don't need to know). After that, as usual we went to the Mall for lunch. Lps tu aku nda beranti2 berasin. So, slisma tia jadinya~ Sasak tu ah. Sampai blek ke rumah di kampung ani wah. K.O rasanya. Bdn g nda nyaman rasa. Mengampai tarus eh. Bangun2 tdur pun berasin jua.. Tapi walaupun cematu, bmood juaku kn menerikah baju2ku lps bgn tdur ah. Heran~

9hb =D

Today is our 5yrs 1mth anniversary~ Yayyy~~ Happy anniversary to both of us.. Di sini, inginku menyampaikn sebuah puisi.. Eseeehhhhh~ HAHAHAH..

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

Joel's......

Back To December..

Tajuk yg ku buat atu is actually lagu Taylor Swift - Back To December. Aku bru first tedangar lagu atu tadi di radio. 1st time ku dgr, aku suka trus lagu atu. So meaningful wah and the music pun sedap di dengar. I love it.. Ku baca lyricnya, about someone yg frust pasal keegoan diri sendiri, yg membuat pasangannya lari dari ia.. Dari apa yg ku faham, ia choose 'back to December' atu menceritakn pasal hubungan drg yg sudah dingin. So, since di negeri urg putih, musim yg seswai utk menunjukkan suasana hubungan drg atu is musim sajuk which is winter~ And plus, I think drg di sana December atu musim winter kali.. Indaku tau la, tapi dari apa yg ku faham psl liriknya and tajuk lagunya all about frustration & coldness.. Setau jua aku atu kan..

http://youtu.be/QUwxKWT6m7U

What future holds..

Today is 4th of July. My mom's birthday.. Panjang2 ku msg greet birthdaynya, ani ia reply: "Tq.Belanja?".. Hahah.. Anyway, Happy Birthday to the most wonderful woman in the world, my mom! =)

Aku belanja my mom tadi mkn di Aminah Arif, mengambuyat. But terasa kekurangan seorang lagi, adikku yg no.2 c Cinin. Ia di hostel di KB. Hmm~ Nda apa la~ Anyway, semoga mamaku dimurahkn rezeki, sihat2 slalu dan gembira. Amin712x~

Now, about future. Everyone is worried about the future. I think it's the same for all of us. In my case, I followed a path that had been laid out for me. My whole life. But, I don't regret that at all. I don't think it was a waste of time. Because I don't think any effort in life is wasted.

Masa ani aku tengah memikirkn apa yg akan ku lalui nanti. Macamana aku nanti.. Risauku eh.. Aku mau bahagia sampai ahir hayatku wah.. Aku harap semua impianku tecapai. Aku nda mau idup dlm kesedihan lagi.. Sedikit pun inda ku mau sedih. Especially kalau pasal hati. Indaku mau terluka lagi..