Cute girl

Maksudku tajuk ku atu bkn aku (walaupun aku cute jua.Hahahah =p) . Atu refer to a cute kid masa last week aku ke church di Seria. Ada org dari Jakarta join arah church kami. Anaknya super cute~~~ Yatah aku suka kacau anak atu. Aku interviu mamanya, tanya nama anaknya. Hehe~ Her name is Joy. Mcm namanya, ia pun periang n friendly. Umurnya mcm 3 tahun, so cute~~ ^^, Matanya bolat bnr2 (indaku tipu). Slaluku pigang2 pipinya yg molek atu. Hahahah.. Amai~~

Our 5years 5mths anniversary~

On 9th Nov 2011, kami sambut anniversary yg ke 5thn 5bln. Hehe~ <3

Masa on the way kn jln2 ke kadai. Saja2 spending our time sama2. Hehe~

Inside my car. Pun saja2 begambar. Suka begambar la katakn~ Hahaha.

Ani masa di restoran dakat bagas kadai Liang Toon dulu. Nyeh!

My handsome love. Kekeke~

Eseeehhhh~~Control macho lagi tu.. Hahahah..

My food. Rangka. Ahahaha~

His food. =)


Apa2 pun, we enjoyed our anniversary that time. =D

One day ur life will flash before ur eyes. Make sure its worth watching.

Ada seorang lagi kawan yg meninggal psl eksiden. I just can't believe it and it was too shocking! Her name was Nining. Aku inda plg rapat sama ia but pernah bckp2 sama ia cematu saja. Mcm ndaku pecaya benda atu terjadi. I heard ia drive motosikal masa atu just wana test her ability coz ia baru pass her motor-driving license. Then, ia eksiden sendiri. Nda tau cemana bule and ada benda tajam tecucuk arah her stomach n isi perutnya teburai. Gosh, I can't imagine that!!

Betapa singkatnya masa tani di dunia ani. Huhuhu.. Ada urg yg sihat hari ani, isuknya nadath ia sudah. Mcm sng saja nyawa tane atu dicabut bila2 masa. Unbelievable.. =S

Can't take my ears off this song..

Hehe.. Maksudnya aku 'terpikat' arah sebuah lagu. Lagu dari Dadali - Katakan cinta. Love this song very2 much. I hear it like thousands time. Indaku tau kenapa aku suka mendangar lagu ani. Asalku dgr lagu ani, terasa something la..


Aku paling suka dgr part Chorusny:

Menatap matamu~ Sungguh aku layu~
Memandang senyummu~ Benar ku tak mampu~
Ku mohon kepadamu~ Genggam tanganku~
Dan bisikkan kata2 cinta untukku~
Bila engkau 'I love you'~~~

Ani tengah mendangar lagu ani la ni.. Hehehe~~

Peace yo!

E.N.T.A.H

Hi~ Its been a while.. Bruth terasa kn meng-update blog. Mlm ani aku rasa boring, bru bagas btext sama Ejo tadi. Ani buat kraja ia, mls juaku kn ngacau.

Now, aku kn cetakn sal my work life. Kehidupanku di tempat kaja. Aku start kaja msa bln 4. To be exact, masa 12th Apr 2011. So kira sendiri ah kalau kn tau brapa bln dh ku kaja. Unfortunately, my probation period is being extended. Boie~~ Mula2 ku kaja, ada trasa ckit malu2 and still mcm alien ku rasa cz everybody seems mcm pulaukn aku especially di kalangan receptionist. Ya Rabbi~~ Ada sstghnya yg kurg frenly la, nda mau mnagur aku.. Ish3~ Msatu rasa bnr2 mcm alien.

Msatu urg yg ku rasa baik arah aku cuma c Farah. Mula2 ku kaja, ku kana antar ke bahagian Ward. Tempat yg memaningkn receptionistnya. Drg greet aku cemani "Slamat dtg ke kampung pening lalat!".. Msatu ndaku fhm kenapa drg ckp catu arahku. Skali rupanya pyh menghandle di sana atu. Aku banyak jua la buat silap masa di sana. Sampai bos basar blik2 panggil aku utk jumpa ia. Malar ku dimarahi lehnya.. Damn! Last2, aku kana suruh kaja arah Stroke centre. So sampai msane aku kaja di bahagian Stroke. Di sana sng sdikit la dripada d ward dulu. Tapi ada benda bru lagi yg ku mesti blajar masa ku di Stroke centre ani. Aku mesti rajin mengaga doktor2 utk tanya itu ini if ada bkaitan sama pesakit2. Selain drp atu, aku mesti update statistic apa, mrequest file dari bhg Medical Record, mregister nama pesakit kalau drg first time kana tahan di sana. Byk jua la benda bru yg ku belajar di sana.

Lama2 ku kaja atu, bruth ku biasa dgn kn smua receptionist di sana. Selain receptionist, aku biasa jua sdh with doktor2, nurse2, porter2, cleaner2, food aid2, hospital aid2 n mcm2 g la.. Nda la smua ku biasa.. Kn smua dh ku tau p nda smua berabis. Fhm maksudku? Mun nda fhm, sudah.. Hmm~ apa g ah..? Tu ja kale..

Good night~~

Life as a worker

Baru ku sadar yg keraja ani bkn sanang. Entah ah, bila keraja ni, semua kn dipikirkn. Mcm strez wh ulehnya. Aku ingin idup bebas mcm dulu lagi. Huhuhu~ =( Suasana kraja ni lain wh.. Mostly yg dipikirkn is menjaga ati urg sekeliling. Nda dpt slh sikit, sudah tia jadi pekara basar. Akupun heran. Alum g temasuk dengan urg2 yg jenisnya sombong atu. Palat bnr.. Akupun heran kenapa ada jenis urgnya cematu. Apath pedahnya tu..? Apath yg durg dpt tu sombong ah? Amas? Mun dpt amas wh, akupn mau tu jadi sombong. Wahahah.. Bodoh betul..

Ndath ku kira, ku luahkn sini ja. Siapa yg tebaca krg, syukur.. At least, sadar2 diri atu! Awal ku gtau, tempat keraja, aku low-profile. Smua ku turuti.. Urg jahati, aku sbr. Go with the flow. Luar keraja krg ku antam. Tempat kraja, memang aku budak baru. Luar tempat kaja, smua sama. Ingat2 ja.. Aku menagur pun nda alang2 ni mun luar kraja.. Sama taraf x ah, peduli apa ku. Tempat kraja, aku murah senyuman. Aku akun memang aku frenly urgnya. Tapi skali ja urg cari pasal dgn aku, di luar krg ku meng'antam'..

The pencil and the eraser..

Pencil: You know i'm really sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything

Pencil: I'm sorry 'cause you get hurt because of me. Whenever i make a mistake you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller every time

Eraser: That's true but i don't really mind. You see, i was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one of these days i know i'll be gone and you have to replace me with a new one, i'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad..=)

='( I was touched by this..

10th Grade:-
       As I sat there in English class,
       I stared at the girl next to me.
       She was my so called 'best friend'.
       I stared at her long, silky hair,
       and wished she was mine.
       But she didn't notice me like that,
       and I knew it.
       After class,
       she walked up to me and asked me for
       the notes she had missed the day before.
       I handed them to her.She said 'thanks'
       and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
       I want to tell her, I want her to know
       that I don't want to be just friends,
       I love her but I'm just too shy,
       and I don't know why.
11th grade:-
        The phone rang. On the other end,
        it was her. She was in tears,
        mumbling on and on about how
        her love had broke her heart.
        She asked me to come over
        because she didn't want to be alone, So I did.
        As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her
        soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
        After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
        and three bags of chips,
        she decided to go home.
        She looked at me, said 'thanks'
        and gave me a kiss
        on the cheek..I want to tell her,
        I want her to know that
        I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Senior year:-
        One fine day she walked to my locker.
        "My date is sick" she said,
        "hes not gonna go" well,
        I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
        we made a promise that
        if neither of us had dates,
        we would go together just as 'best friends'.
        So we did.
        That night, after everything was over,
        I was standing at her front door step.
        I stared at her as She smiled at me
        and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
        Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!"
        and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
        I want to tell her,
        I want her to know
        that I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Graduation:-
        A day passed, then a week, then a month.
        Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
        I watched as her perfect body
        floated like an angel
        up on stage to get her diploma.
        I wanted her to be mine-but
        she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
        Before everyone went home,
        she came to me in her smock and hat,
        and cried as I hugged her.
        Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
        and said- 'you're my best friend,
        thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
        I want to tell her,
        I want her to know
        that I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Marriage:-
        Now I sit in the pews of the church.
        That girl is getting married now.
        and drive off to her new life,
        married to another man.
        I wanted her to be mine,
        but she didn't see me like that,
        and I knew it.
        But before she drove away,
        she came to me and said 'you came !'.
        She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
        I want to tell her,
        I want her to know
        that I don't want to be just friends,
        I love her but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
Death:-
        Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
        of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
        At the service, they read a diary entry
        she had wrote in her high school years.
        This is what it read:
        'I stare at him wishing he was mine,
        but he doesn't notice me like that,
        and I know it.
        I want to tell him,
        I want him to know that
        I don't want to be just friends,
        I love him but I'm just too shy,
        and I don't know why.
        I wish he would tell me he loved me !
        .........'I wish I did too...'
        I thought to my self, and I cried.

=)

Today aku spent time bjln2 lagi sama my bf.. Andang fevretku ni jln2 time offdayku. "Knpkn ko ani suka jln2 Ema??Nda pandai teranah di rumah jua ko ni!!" Peduli apa ku. Sudah time kraja stress, time offday buang stress la. Lagipun aku suka spend time sama bfku... Bh ani ja x, ngaleh ku dah.. Masa utk tidoooo~~ ZzzzzZZ~~ I'm very happy today.. =D

Sak kali ey~

Awu, sasakku! Tadi ada lagi bini2 atu komen arah status bfku. Cam apa! Sasakku meliat, mcm ada hati sulnya rah bfku. Hmm~ Down lagi rasaku.. Nada mood eh.. Shit! 

Bored to da max!

As stated on my 'Title', yes I am bored right now. Perrggghh~~ I feel cold cz it's raining outside. I need my boy to hug me.. ^^, Sak kali eh..haha.. Today is my offday and I spent it wisely by spending a quality time with my boyfie. Nyeh.. Hahaha.. This is what I usually do if I'm on my holiday. Jln2~

This morning, me and him went to Kemuda for a reason (you don't need to know). After that, as usual we went to the Mall for lunch. Lps tu aku nda beranti2 berasin. So, slisma tia jadinya~ Sasak tu ah. Sampai blek ke rumah di kampung ani wah. K.O rasanya. Bdn g nda nyaman rasa. Mengampai tarus eh. Bangun2 tdur pun berasin jua.. Tapi walaupun cematu, bmood juaku kn menerikah baju2ku lps bgn tdur ah. Heran~

9hb =D

Today is our 5yrs 1mth anniversary~ Yayyy~~ Happy anniversary to both of us.. Di sini, inginku menyampaikn sebuah puisi.. Eseeehhhhh~ HAHAHAH..

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

Joel's......

Back To December..

Tajuk yg ku buat atu is actually lagu Taylor Swift - Back To December. Aku bru first tedangar lagu atu tadi di radio. 1st time ku dgr, aku suka trus lagu atu. So meaningful wah and the music pun sedap di dengar. I love it.. Ku baca lyricnya, about someone yg frust pasal keegoan diri sendiri, yg membuat pasangannya lari dari ia.. Dari apa yg ku faham, ia choose 'back to December' atu menceritakn pasal hubungan drg yg sudah dingin. So, since di negeri urg putih, musim yg seswai utk menunjukkan suasana hubungan drg atu is musim sajuk which is winter~ And plus, I think drg di sana December atu musim winter kali.. Indaku tau la, tapi dari apa yg ku faham psl liriknya and tajuk lagunya all about frustration & coldness.. Setau jua aku atu kan..

http://youtu.be/QUwxKWT6m7U

What future holds..

Today is 4th of July. My mom's birthday.. Panjang2 ku msg greet birthdaynya, ani ia reply: "Tq.Belanja?".. Hahah.. Anyway, Happy Birthday to the most wonderful woman in the world, my mom! =)

Aku belanja my mom tadi mkn di Aminah Arif, mengambuyat. But terasa kekurangan seorang lagi, adikku yg no.2 c Cinin. Ia di hostel di KB. Hmm~ Nda apa la~ Anyway, semoga mamaku dimurahkn rezeki, sihat2 slalu dan gembira. Amin712x~

Now, about future. Everyone is worried about the future. I think it's the same for all of us. In my case, I followed a path that had been laid out for me. My whole life. But, I don't regret that at all. I don't think it was a waste of time. Because I don't think any effort in life is wasted.

Masa ani aku tengah memikirkn apa yg akan ku lalui nanti. Macamana aku nanti.. Risauku eh.. Aku mau bahagia sampai ahir hayatku wah.. Aku harap semua impianku tecapai. Aku nda mau idup dlm kesedihan lagi.. Sedikit pun inda ku mau sedih. Especially kalau pasal hati. Indaku mau terluka lagi..

All we have is just a temporary life..

Masa hari Ahad my dad told me yg my old friend meninggal dunia due to car crash. Umurnya tua sikit dari aku. Muda masih tu. Kesian.. I was shocked after I heard the news. Indaku pecaya mula2, sampaiku ckp maybe adiknya yg meninggal. Rupanya bnrth tu ia yg meninggal. Ia sama church dengan kami dulu but batah udah ia nda kchurch.

So, I decided to give my last respect to him kemarin before ia kana kuburkn. I went to his house with my cousin. Kazenku yg membawa aku plg. Aku biasa sama c mulah ani, yth ku ke sana. Masaku liat mayatnya, I'm speechless. Then, tflash dlm utakku tentang semua kehidupanku. Tefikirku, idup di dunia ani cuma sementara saja. Semua tane sama, tinggal di dunia ani utk sementara saja. We just don't know when is our turn. It's just a matter of TIME.

Caranya meninggal pun membagi rawan ati mendangar. What I heard is, ia tpelanting kuar from the car, then kana hit lagi uleh a car sampai lehernya patah. Then, darah nda beranti kluar from his ears, nose and mouth. Kepalanya mcm ada ratak. So, he died on the spot. What a tragic death. Kami nda sangka. He was a nice & funny boy, kenapa kematiannya cematu? Only GOD knows why. Tapi TUHAN atu baik, kalau inda dicabutNYA nyawanya tarus masa atu, gerenti c mulah atu tseksa bnr menahan kesakitan. TUHAN punya cara berbeza utk setiap seorang dari tane.. Expect the unexpected...

Merindui negeri Dubai..

Today aku tkenangkan balek pasal negeri Dubai. Rindu serindu2nya~ Wuhuu~

One of Dubai trademark

Bangunan di atas ani is salah 1 trademark di Dubai. Kalau ke Dubai, mesti pelancong kana bawa ke sana. Manyak cantik woo~~

Yg ani aku & adikku yg bungsu. Pantainya atu bdepanan with bangunan yg dalam 1st pic tadi. Lautnya kebiru2an, I loike!

Ani adikku c Cinin yg menggambarkn. I guess it's a building with music stuff di dalamnya pasal ada gitar ah.. Hehe~ Rugged kn?

Dubai city.. Hmm~ I wonder when will Brunei became like this?? 10 years later? 100 years later? Who knows~

Ani kami lepak2 dkt pantai after bali minuman dari Starbucks.. Nyeh..

Ani aku sama burung peacock.. Pyh2ku mengunjar burung atu masa atu, jual mahal dikit. Inda plg ia lari tapi jual mahal, asal kn digambar, menuleh ia ke tempat lain. Cechapi jua tu~

Ane masa kami arah Dhow Cruise. Was having dinner di sana, suasananya romantic! Love it! Kalau couple, seswai tu candle light dinner di sana. Keke~ Siuk la suasananya. Mula2 iski dalam atu, sekali sudahnya batah atu. Ada jua kn 3 jam kali or more than that. Lama2 tetidur. Atu bnr~~ Keboringan jua rasanya mun sdh batah atu. Hahaha..

Ani before kami ke Desert Safari ni. Ke kadai dulu membuang air apa membali makanan minuman apa. Yatah sekali kaling yg di sana nyuruh kami try la yg bebungkus arah kepala kami ah. Ndaku mau, dipajalnya jua~~ Banath tu kaling andng memajal~ Ku tanggalkan kain atu, sekali mrh lagi ia tu, dipasangnya balik rh kpalaku. Tau sudah ku malu~ Banyak kli ah tourists di sana masa atu. Betamu gigi wah. Mcm pasar wh dlm kadai damit atu. Sekali sasak2ku kana pasang balik rh kepalaku, yatah ku chapi2 begambar atu sama c Ajai ah.. Ahahahah~

Padang pasir dorang. Seluas mata memandang. Semua warna brown.. Fuh!

Happy 5yrs anniversary~

Today is our 5th anniversary.. Happy anniversary~ =D Masing2 bz hari ani, nda dpt jumpa.. Kerja la punya psl.. Cheh! Teringatku balek cemana kami bkenalan apa dulu. Hehe.. Dulu, kami ani sklas. Aku repeaters, bfku freshy form 5 masa atu. Time sklas atu, langsung nda betagur apa. Nda kenal katakn~ Nyeh! Maklum la, masa atu repeaters kurang bgaul sama yg freshies. Aha3.. Ku lintasi saja tu.. Keke.. Sdh form 6, baruth kn bkenalan.. Sodah laa~ Ahahah.. =p

Anyway~ Kami sdh sama2 selama 5 tahun. Susah sng sama2. Happy n kecewa atu andang ada tu. Hopefully, lps ani nada lagi yg mengacau apa, yg buat masing2 frust apa. Entah laa~ Aku mau "and they live happily ever after.." kalau dpt..

<3

 

 

I wanna be with u..

I dedicated a song to him. Hope he's listening. And from the lyric, I hope he understands how much that I love him. N hopefully, our relationship will bloom always.. I wanna live a happy life with him..

Hurt again

Masih terasa sakitnya.. Asal ja ku teringat, sakit.. Makin naleh ku jadinya.. ='(

With him

Tadi aku jln sama bf ke Mall. Aku mau kami perbaiki hubungan kami atu. Walaupun aku mseh rasa sakit + tluka. I tried my best to smile. Anyway, ia belanja aku mkn di KFC, we ordered the same menu which is Snack Plate. My favourite plate.. =) I ordered yg original & he ordered yg spicy. Sekali masa ku kan abis mkn tu, baruth we realised yg ku mkn atu yg spicy, no wonder la cm padas! N also yg spicy ane lain sikit rasanya compare to the original. Leeerrr~ melepasss~ Ia plg mkn yg ori ani.. And kami jln2 dlm Mall atu. We end up buying sandals! Lain yg ku target, lain plg yg ku bali. I was targeting to buy perfume, end up buying sandals! Channeled out! At least aku rasa terhibur sikit wlaupun mseh ada rasa kecewa..

All I want is to be happy again..

Hari ke 5 sdh sejak kejadian atu.. It still hurts and it cuts deep inside my heart. I'm tired of crying and suffering. I'm not okay now.

Stratovarius - Forever

I stand alone in the darkness
The winter of my life came so fast
Memories go back to my childhood
To days I still recall

Oh how happy I was then
There was no sorrow there was no pain
Walking through the green fields
Sunshine in my eyes

I'm still there everywhere
I'm the dust in the wind
I'm the star in the northern sky
I never stayed anywhere
I'm the wind in the trees
Would you wait for me forever? 

='(

Separuh jiwaku pergi

A song can tell the whole story about me now:

Anang - Separuh jiwaku pergi

Separuh jiwaku pergi
Memang indah semua
Tapi berakhir luka
Kau main hati dengan sadarmu
Kau tinggal aku

Benar ku mencintaimu
Tapi tak begini
Kau khianati hati ini
Kau curangi aku

Kau bilang tak pernah bahagia
Selama dengan aku
Itu ucap bibirmu
Kau dustakan semua yang kita bina
Kau hancurkan semua

Benar ku mencintaimu
Tapi tak begini
Kau khianati hati ini
Kau curangi aku

Hmm.. Bila aku kn happy semula ni? Ya Tuhan~ Cemana caranya supaya aku dpt lupakan semua atu? N bila aku bnr2 dpt menikmati kebahagiaan yg sejati, yg bkn palsu..? D bwh ni gmbr2 kenangan kami.. Bjanji kn sama2 sampai nanti. Cemana tu..? Sampai kh tu nanti..? Dear bf, I cried when I look at all our pics.. Knapa ko sng2 lupakan kenangan2 tane..? Mana janji2mu? Ko buat aku kecewa cemani.. ='(

Dear bf, ingat ka semua kenangan2 tane? ='( Tane kn 5 taun dh.. Knapa ko buat aku hampa..? I wish he didn't do it that time.. I wish he knew how to appreciate me.. And how I wish kami langsung nda kenal kalau tau cemani jadinya..........

Ani hari ke-3, sakitnya masih terasa. Kenapa la airmataku ani mengalir nda beranti2.? Dear ejo, permintaanku ckit saja, ko setia arahku & jgn buat apa yg ble buat aku sedih.. Pyh ka tu? Why u easily go for other girls? ='( And now, cemana kn buat aku lupakn smua atu?

 ='(

Badly injured

Ani hari ke-2.. Mcm nightmare saja rasanya. And I cannot hold this tears mengenang nasib. Aku atu mcm nda kana hargai bah or lebih tepat g, mcm SAMPAH. U know sampah? The one yg kana buang2, yg nda dipedulikan. Pengorbananku slama ani mcm sia2. I'm confused right now. I don't know which one is true..? Bnrkh ia sayangkn aku or ia buat2 sayangkn aku saja..? Rasa mcm mau hilangkn diri dari semua urg..... Biar urg tecari2 aku psl masa aku ada, nda kna hargai. Bilaku nada, maybe bruth kana hargai... And to ejo, maybe aku bkn siapa2 utkmu.. That's why ko buat aku cemani.. ='( Will our relationship be Forever and will I be happy again..? Even now, its hard for me to post a single smile on my face.. Senyum sedikit pn ndaku dpt. Ndaku tau bila ku kan happy lagi.. Only times can heal my heart..

Aish, why me..? Apa slhku..? Canaku kan kaja krg with my eyes like this?

Kehampaanku

Today is hari yg paling mendukacitakan utkku la. I even wrote this now with millions of tears running down my cheeks. Words just can't express how sad I am right now. Ani entah kali ke berapa kedapatan bfku bkenalan sma other chicks. Ia suruh aku trust ia. I do trust him, usul saja mcm inda. Tapi dibuatnya aku cemani. I don't understand why.. Dear boyfriend, why u did this to me? Kalau ia sayangkn aku, ia ndakn buat something yg buat aku patah hati. What he did to me? Ia bkenalan sama other chicks thru Tagged. I read the inbox, ia minta emel bini2, dipanggilnya drg 'babe', ia puji drg cute la apa la. And that was 2 months ago and bln2 yg dulu lagi la. Kira baru2 jua tu kn. Idup2ku kana main2kn. And from that, I knew... I just knew that he don't love me. Entah, tepaksa x ia sama aku atu.

And aku sad jua psl I don't know whether today is the last day for me and him or not? Why do I have to go thru this hard time lagi? And to ejo, knapa ko buat aku cemani? U said u love me but why...? *speechless*

Makan 7 mulah kazenku

Tadi aku jln mkn 7 di rumah sbalah. Sejak kazenku atu meninggal, aku nda pernah dtg ke sana even the day ia meninggal atu pn nada ku bkesempatan ke sana. Ia meninggal minggu lps hari Ahad. Ngam2 isuknya assignmentku deadline, sbab tu nda ku ke sana. Aku buat assignmntku sampai kul 5 pagi, nda betiduran sal membuat coding. Masa kuburnya pn nada ku dpt dtg sal tpaksa ke skulah antar assignment ah.

Masa ku ke sana tadi, baruth ku tjumpa drg kazen2ku, drg Edok, Titih, Susi, Emih, Nunah. Lama udah ku nda nampak drg sejak2 ku kaja atu. Drg tagur badanku makin kurus. Entah la labu~ Bagiku cam biasa ja. I don't know why. Berabis lagi drg tagur tu, dari awal ku di sana sampai ku balek ani wh memajal nagur sal badanku especially c dyg Edok.. Aha3.. Cemana jua ulah, aku mkn mcm biasa, manada ku bdiet. Kuat mkn kli ah aku ni, jgn liat bdn kurus. Mun sdh andang badanku catu~ Nda juaku dpt buat apa2 kli ah. Hahah.. Siuk la jua ceta2 sma drg, batah2 nda jumpa atu.

Pahami sendiri apa maksudnya..

Hidup ini complicated

Today I felt so suck.. Frankly, I don't give a damn!! Wahahah~ Nada la.. Bangun pagi tadi, after bsiap2, sudah tia kana marah2i leh my mom. I don't know why but me & my mom, we got issue.. Aha3.. Sak x eh! Pagiku dimulakan dengan kehampaan. Then, mau nda mau, utk mendepend myself, I had to fight her back. Aku nda mau wh kn melawan indung ani bnrnya, nda berkat wh. Tapi kan~ Mun sdh cematu, mcm terpaksa taya~ *sigh*. N what makes it even more suck, aku feel bad after yelling at my mom cz I was so mad. Huhuhu~ T_T Aku nda mau cematu~ Lps ku beredar dari rumah tadi pagi, suddenly I felt so down sal aku buat mamaku cematu. I regret for what I did to her.. ='(

Then, masa keraja tadi. I tried my best sdh to do the work perfectly but still, in my boss's eyes, aku still buat slh. I admit it tapi ndakn ia nda fhm2 yg aku ani masih baru2an~ Ndakn tarus2 perfect kale~ She was angry at me. For the second time, I felt down berabis.

Ani for the 3rd time. Psl me & my boyfie. I don't know why, for me, ia yg slh. Then for him, aku yg slh. So, bila nda betamu pikiran atu, jadilah kelaie~ He said I don't have a sense of humor. That is due to something la tu. Then, sdhnya ia mrh atu, ia nda brapa layan aku la. Sampai ia buat2 rh status ani wh. For a gf, rasa mcm kana stab jua tu kn. Again, aku kecewa~

This is the 4th time for today. Congratulation~ Psl urg2 yg dekat/rapat denganku. They claimed that they 'love' me but the fact is, drg makin menjauhi aku n I feel abandoned. Ah sodah laa~ Konon kwn, tapi buat aku cemani.. I don't need that kind of close friend. It's time for me to terminate them from my 'close friend' list. Yg sudah berlalu tu, biar tia. It's time for me to forget them. I hate to do this to my 'close friends' tapi aku terpaksa. Nh, atu yg buat aku sedih lagi cos nda lagi rapat. I do love them sincerely. =s Klu drg slh anggap, ndath ku tau tu..

Ok, atu saja. Pacah dh rekod tu hampa bkali2 dlm sehari..

Love nowadays

Hari ani banyak urg frust tmasuk aku & adikku.. Biasa la,kalau dlm cinta2 ani,jrg kn nda frust.. Adikku lagi sandi, gfnya duakn ia.. Hoho~ Aku pernah mengalami tu cana rasanya kana duakn, dulu la.. Rasanya? Cam kn gila! Aha3.. Yata aku wondering what happen to love nowadays..? Sdh hilang ka cinta sejati tu? Now, aku kesiankn adikku sal ia mcm frust menonggeng.. Fhm bnr2 ku cana rasanya tu.. Hmmm~nda tau laaa.. Love love love,complicated jua bnr~

Entah..

Hari ani 27hb sdh. Hmm~ Stressku eh.. MsaNe aku kaja dh. Alam kaja with alam skulah ni lain eh. Yata bila kaja disatukan sama skulah, makin stress dibuatnya. So, msaNe aku kaja + ada clas mlm. And that night class ada buat assignment which due date is 13th Mar.. Huhu! Nda g batah tu. 1 pun alum ku buat.. Pisan eh~ T_T

Dubai - Part 4

Now, aku kn cerita psl apa lg ah..? Ah, aku rasa urg di Dubai atu kaya2 wh. Mun sdh asal bejalan2 tiap hari time di sana, byk tia tu kerita Hummer. Sana sini wh. And ada jua brand kerita di sana yg nda tedapat di Brunei. GILA!! Luxury car kale ah yg drg pakai di sana. Mun sdh di Brunei ani, aku minat keta Chevrolet Cruze. Bagiku, lawath sdh tu. Nh, sekali di sana, drg pakai krita Chevrolet Camaro wh. Rugged eh!! Kalah Cruze ruggednya.. Minat Camaro ku tarus. Hahah..

Nah ni nh Chevrolet Camaro ah. Rugged kn~ Bakal ketaku..=p

Selain drp Camaro ani, drg pakai keta Lamborghini. Gila2an~

Lbih kurg cani la usul Lamborghini atu. Bakal ketaku jua =p

Then, ada juaku tejumpa keta Ferrari di sana atu. Ish3~ Semuo oghang kayo~~ Aha3..

Dubai - Part 3

Now, akanku ceritakn psl urg2 yg tinggal di Dubai. Di Dubai ane, byk urg Filipin sama urg India. Jgnth jauh2 mencari, byk tu ampai2 di Dubai. Hahaha. Yatah masa kami jln2 di sana, I was like, "Ani negeri Dubai or negeri Filipin/India ne???!!!". Teluan byk bh drg di sana atu, Filipinos la paling ketara di sana. Sampai kami ani pn kana ucap Filipino uleh penjual2 di kadai sana. Aiyo~ And also kaling di sana pandai ckp Filipin yo~ Psl drg bekawan, yatah~

Di kadai2 sana, kebanyakknnya kaling wh, semua lelaki. Jarang kamu kn tenampak urg local sana atu, betapuk pakah. Hahah. Kalau nampak local pun, yg bini2nya luan2 over menutup aurat. Drg pakai jubah itam and tudung yg cover all over their face ani wh. Mahal tu muka drg. Yatah I wonder cemana the guys mengurat the girls atu ah without seeing their face..? Hmmm~ Anyway~ Ada one time atu, aku n my mom sopping kn membali baju arah kadai street. Sekali penjual lelaki atu bawa aku ckp Filipin, padahal ia kaling. Then, aku ckp "I'm not from Philippine. I'm from Brunei, near Malaysia.". Yatah ia senyum2 ani wh, gatal sulnya. Di baginya diskaun tarus eh kami membali baju ah.. Ahahahah..

And driver taxi drg kebanyakkan dari Pakistan.. Kn semua drg nda tau negeri Brunei ni. Kesian jua Brunei ani kn. Ada la some of them tau negeri Brunei.. "Oooo~Brunei Darussalam~Peace country." Eyoo~ Brunei kana ucap negeri aman eh. Bangga la sikit.. Keke.. And ada jua yg tau negeri Brunei p nda tau mana locationnya. "Oh, I thought Brunei is somewhere near Iran..!!" Pacahku ketawa masa atu.. Hahahah.. Adaka dkt Iran~ Jauh2~

Bh, atu ja cerita utk Part 3 ani.. ^^,

Dubai - Part 2

Ok,blogku yg lapas ku ceritakn masa mula2 sampai di Dubai. Now, aku ceritakan pasal Dubai. Dimulakan dari suasana di Dubai la. Suasananya siok la jua, nda jua boring antap mcm Brunei (oopppss!) =p. Banyak tempat lepak sana atu, bangunan pun tinggi2 jua. Banyak skyscrapers yo~Kagum ku meliat. Starbucks pun banyak sana.. Hahah.. And landscapes di siring2 jln drg pn nda kurang gaya. Colourful eh, me likey~^^, . Apa lagi kalau meliat pantainya, mcm apa~ LAWAAAAA!! 1st ku ke pantainya, mcm kn nda mau beranti kn begambar di pantainya atu. Teluan bersih + jernih airnya, mcm paradise. Keke.. K, aku insertkn pics suasana di Dubai ah:

Ani landscape yg siring jlnraya dkt pantai

Ani landscape dpn rmh urg

Behind me is Burj Al-Arab

 

Tengok ler bangunan2 mereka~

Pengalamanku di Dubai (UAE)

Masa blogku yg lps, aku nda gtau yg aku kemana. So ani, kn smua dh tau yg aku ke Dubai masa atu. Ani aku kn ceritakn masaku di sana la.

Masa mula2 sampai di airport Dubai atu, aku kagum la dengan kebesaran airportnya atu, kalah2 g airport masa kami di Japan tu. Mula2 kagum, sekalinya kami ani bejalan bebatu2 jauhnya (mcm apa~), mcm sasak kali kau eh! Adakah signboard dlm airport atu nda jelas membagitau di mana tempat utk kami yg bru turun dari plane RBA atu. Punya la jauh bejalan (entah brapa batu jauhnya psl airport atu telampau basar), sampai kusut mengusut bh ku bejalan sal sakit kaki, nda jua pandai tejumpa di mana utk kami cap passport ah. Kami atu kn mengambil baggage kami wh, skali sampai, kn cap passport.. I admit that urgnya kasar2 la dengan muka marung2. Ani conversationku sama tukang cap paspot ah:

*kana liat2 dh paspotku uleh si tukang cap atu*
Tukang cap paspot (TCP): Where do you come from? *sambil meliat aku dengan muka marung*
Aku: Errmm~Brunei..? *with muka bangang*
TCP: Nooo~Where do you come from??
Aku: *mjl jua ia ani betanya* Brunei..
TCP: *dengan muka mcm mls mlayan* Noooooo~I mean what plane do you come from just now?
Aku: Ooooo~from Royal Brunei Airline~~

Apa la ia atu~~ Lain x pandai2 la buat soalan,ani soalannya,aku dtg dri mana. Memang la ku jwb 'Brunei' sal aku Bruneian.. Ngek eh! Then, sdh ku jwb cematu, ia ckp aku ani slh terminal. Sepatutnya kami yg dari RBA ani arah terminal 1. Atu bnr~~ kn naleh2 bejalan bebatu2 jauhnya, slh terminal rupanya kami atu. Tepaksa jua bepatah balik arah terminal 1. Sak li eh!! Ada plg buggy nya tapi buggy atu utk keperluan khas mcm utk ibu2 mengandung and utk yg membawa baby. Huh!! Menyusahkn betui!!

Sdhtah kami sampai sana subuh, jam 2+am (jam Dubai), then gara2 tesalah tempat atu, jadi kul 3+am  tia~Lps atu,di pendekkn cerita, sampai ke Rush Inn Hotel after ikut Ladies Taxi..Andngnya ada Ladies Taxi sana.. Ada warna pink. N the driver is a lady. Special dkit. Hahah.. Then, sdh siap check in di hotel apa smua, tidur~ FYI, jam di Dubai lambat 3jam+ dari jam di Brunei. Yth masa di Dubai atu, kami bgn dlm kul 11-12 tghari jam Brunei, if d Dubai tu kul 8am bru tu. Hahah.. Nyaman tido eh masa 1st day di sana ah, luan2 naleh bh. Atu ceta mula2 sampai sana tu.

Hmm~

Tinggal 4 hari g kan belayar ni.. Jgnth dulu ku gtau ke mana..Ada g ku update tu nanti. Masalahnya~ Mamaku bah nyuruh kluarkan amount yg basar dri bankku utk pakai bali2 x time belayar atu.. Huhuhu.. Abis la usinku dlm bank atu.. T_T  NooooooooooooooOO~ Sakit kepala tarus. Hahah..

Blablablabla~

How?

Tonight aku upset lagi.. Here we go again~ My mom ckp rh aku "How can u put a smile on my face..?" with an angry tone and with 'that' look again.. Nadaku buat salah wh, bisai2 ku duduk and dgr lagu arah lappyku, tarus2 tia cematu..

Masih terngiang2 wh apa ckpnya atu.. I wud never say that to anyone. And cudn't forget the feeling time ia puji2 anak urg lain as if I don't exist.. I did my best to fulfill her wish tapi ia bila kn faham aku..? When it comes to this mother-daughter bonding time, I always failed and end up with scars.. Huh!

Idk~

Idk = I dan kamu..HAHAHAHA.. Nada wah~ I don't know..

Ari ani ari Sabtu n nda ku tau kn buat apa.. Rasanya mcm kn ke Pantai. Plus, semalam ada hal yg menganggu utakku.. Hahah.. Yatah ku malas ni cemani ani. Andang sengaja ni buat aku cani. Sak li ko eh! Hahah..

 

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Setelah sekian lama~

Woah,isuk bulan 3 taya~Barutah ku tepikir kan update blogku.. Males bah I itu~..hahah.. Hari ani nada apa2 yang special, ganya siang tadi adventureku ke Tutong saja, atupun uleh2 kajenku membawa. Mamanya trima hari ani, yatah. Since aku nada papa kn di buat ato, ikut tah saja~~ Jangan nda galat~ Lagipun kana belanja~ Hahah..

Yatah pagi tadi kami ke Pejabat Buruh ngambil usin mama kajenku (babuku). So, ke sana, ramai urg, nda tecari parking, paksa pusing2 *buang minyak betui!*.. Then, ke restoran Faize, kna belanja breakfast. Aku oder ruti kusung ja + teh tarik. Lapas atu, start tia drg menyopping di Hua Ho. Punya la batah~~ Ampun~! Kan mengusut nyuruh balek, nda dapat sal atu bukan mamaku. So, tahan2 saja, mcm setiap masa wah ku merenung lantai atu and dalam pikiranku "Ku duduk jua atas lantai ni krg~". Batah berabis ani wah, bali brg rumah pun kn sehari.. Aiyo~ Sekali, abis dh sopping di HuaHo atu, ada lagi next destinationnya, ke SKH g drg.. Amaaaakuuuu~ Di luar, aku atu ketawa2 plg, sekali dlm ati meraung, ngusut la sudah.. Hahah..

Then, ke Soon Lee g. Atu ya! Berserah saja ku, apa bole buat~~ Siapa suruh ikut~ Hahaha.. Then,baruth kn ingat lunch, kul 2+ baruth kn lunch.. Kelaparan jua i tu~

Bh, itu aje kisah ku hari ani~ Blablablabla~

The Rising Sun Country or what we call... JAPAN!

On 15th December 2010, we went to Japan and it was awesome!!! =D 

Me and my bro at Brunei Airport

With Japanese students

With my little brother at a restaurant in The Universal Studio

At KLIA airport with Teddy Bear. Hehehe~

In the bus after we arrived at Osaka Airport, it was really cold!